Sorrow and joy

Hard to leave... so very hard to leave him there. As I held him sleeping in my arms it dawned on me that I would soon hand him back to Trini and Erick, his foster mother and her wonderful grandson. I was watching and listening as Sandra compared notes with them... it was obvious that they love "Daniel" and know all his likes, dislikes and quirks... suddenly I looked at him and began to cry. It hurt me so to think about handing him back over and my heart felt like it weighed 100 lbs. Then another feeling joined my deep sorrow, joy, because I realized suddenly how much I truly loved Jose Daniel. That felt very, very good.